Daddy?

Today I woke up and looked to my left...and do you know what I saw? I saw Deacon...that's our dog. In place of my wonderful husband I saw our dog. It was so sad and I have to say that I am very surprised that I didn't cry. Although I am getting a bit teary-eyed right this second. It is always harder to recap when you actually have time to think about things...when your kiddo goes to bed, things are quiet, and your mind is not preoccupied with tantrums/cuddling/diaper changing/etc...! I am usually pretty strong until someone calls/texts/facebooks/stops by and asks me how I am doing. Don't get me wrong...I am so lucky to have all of you wonderful people who care enough to check on me and Parks...I love you all very much...it is just hard to talk about it.

Today when Parker woke up he looked back at our bed and said, "Daddy." My heart sank. It was so hard to hear his sweet little voice and have to tell him, "No, remember baby...Daddy is at work and we won't see him for a while." During the day he heard the front door close when my mom came home for lunch, and he stared at the door and said, "Daddy." Again, I had to remind him that Daddy is away for a while. I am bracing myself for the next several days when he realizes that Daddy still isn't around.

Today I talked to my husband, knowing that it is the last time I will hear his voice for the next couple weeks. Time for the letter writing to start! It is a good thing I love to write...it must be the teacher in me!

Today I felt God watching over Parker and me as we begin this difficult new lifestyle. I want you to know that your prayers are working and appreciated! Keep 'em coming!!! Lord know we need all the help we can get!

Today we miss Daddy and know how much it is breaking his heart to be away.